I have to admit that i've been very arrogant in the past. I am not a very attractive male, and the women i've dealt with in the past agreed. In my life, i've never had a girlfriend, but I did have a couple encounters with a few women. I attribute those encounters with the women to be just for their own sexual pleasure, rather than showing interest in me as a person. Now the reason I felt i have been arrogant is the fact that i thought i had some sort of qualities that were positive, which i don't. This story is one of my encounters with a woman I had met over an internet chat system. Amy lived in my city and was very nice. That's putting it mildly. She was too good to be true. She was very different, because she was handicapped. She had a muscular distrophy. I was approaching the situation with the willingness to look past her disability. When it was time to meet in person, i didn't have a car, so she agreed to drive somewhere so we can meet. When we did meet, It was obvious that it was going to be a disasterous encounter. Right when she first layed eyes on me, she kept shaking her head. I know what it means, and I still to this day don't know why the night went on as long as it did. Like i said, we met, and she obviously didn't like what i looked like. I was waiting for the right moment for her to tell me to get lost, in so many words, but she never said it. I invite a curse on her eternal soul for this, but anyway, she wanted me to go with her to her friend Jill's house. So i agreed, for some reason. Part of me knew it was over, and part of me didn't want it to be over. All the late night talks on the phone, all the sweetness from her voice, all the time thinking she was a genuinely great person. I agreed to go with her to her friend's house. When we got there, i still felt out of place. Amy wouldn't say a word to me for about an hour after we got there. I even went and bought something for her and Jill at the burger king a block away from the house. I wanted desperately to leave, and so i told them i'm going to go for a walk and would be back. I had plans to leave right then. Then Jill came outside, and saw me sitting down near the house. She told me that Amy really liked me but was very shy and was afraid that she would say the wrong thing. I accepted this as truth, but it was a lie. I then stayed with her at the house. We played nintendo and joked around. Amy was starting to warm up to me, or so it seemed. Jill was very nice to me. It was about 4:00am and we all decided it was time to get some shuteye. We all were laying down in the same bed. Myself with two women, in the same bed. Even though they weren't beautiful, i never encountered that and never dreamed i would either. Well, Jill was sleeping in the other room. Amy and me slept in the bed. Before going to sleep, she actually started to cuddle next to me. She then stuck her hands down my pants and started to fondle me. I was fondling her as well. Then after about 10 minutes, she stopped. There was no orgasm, and no intense kissing. I woke up the next morning, and i was ready to go home. Amy woke up, and we took off towards my house. On the way, she told me that a relationship was out of the question. I called her a few days later, and she was very witchy towards me. I totally spaced her. A few months later, we met online again, and she was very cold towards me. I could have spewed out remarks about her being very big and disabled, but i didn't. I wish i would have stayed home that night. I wish i never met her. It was mostly my fault the way things went. It was my own arrogance, thinking that I had a chance for a relationship with a female. It was the last time that i ever went on a blind date, and the last time i ever will try to find love over the internet.