I was never the type of guy who could get a girl easy, much less get one at all. I'm pretty much pondscum as far as women think. You might say i'm just totally physically repulsive. When i met a girl named Lisa at a park where some friends were gathering one night, my eyes couldn't find their way back into my head. She was quite a looker, very pretty. I guess i could say she was beautiful, but she smoked. Women who smoke turn me off quicker than a sudden power outage, but this woman was too good to give up on. She had no idea that i had the hots for her, i don't think. I don't even remember how and when she found out, but a friend of ours named Katie was, i guess, attempting to bring us together. This woman was quite a looker herself, even better than Lisa. A friend of Katie's, Jim, invited us all over his house one night. I had a sure surprise for Lisa. When i got to Jim's house, Lisa wasn't there yet. Then she arrived. I had a special gift inside the fridge for her. I made her close her eyes, took it out, and placed it in her hands. She opened it and freaked, and got embarassed, like most women do when you give them this gift. It was a rose, a white one. I forgot what the colors mean as far as roses go, but I seem to remember that a white one fit the feelings i had for her. Well, we didn't hold hands or anything. The rose wasn't some magic pill that made us embrace into a passionate lip-lock. I don't even know what i was thinking. I was kind of feeling depressed. She didn't pay that much attention to me. She was paying more attention to Jim's roommate, Bob. We all were drinking wine coolers and beer. She even said to me a very cold thing to say - that when she drinks, her hormone level goes into orbit, and she becomes very horny. She was telling me this as a friend, because she started to feel horny for Bob. I was really feeling depressed then, and was thinking i should just go home and forget i ever laid eyes on her. Later that night, i experienced something so sleazy, shocking, and very immoral. I actually was ready to go home. I was waiting for someone to pick me up, and they didn't show. It was late at night, and I was tired and depressed. I then just stayed at Jim's and would just find my way home in the morning. Lisa didn't know i came back to the house. That was most obvious! Jim said that she went to bed. That was true, but she sure wasn't sleeping. I passed by the room she was "going to bed" in, and couldn't believe my ears. I couldn't believe my eyes, either. There she was, giggling and talking, to Bob. They were on the bed, having sex. I could see the motions, because the room was lit by the moonlight. They couldn't even show some courtesy and close the door. Well, i was fit to be tied, and just slept on the floor in the living room. I woke up in the morning, and was actually waiting for her to wake up so i could give her a piece of my mind. She did wake up soon after, and i gave her an ear-full. Of course, she tried to make it seem like she was the victim. She knew my true feelings for her, and she couldn't tell me the truth, that there could never be a thing between us. She had to sleep with some guy she never even met before, which was downright sleezy, considering they only met 3 hours beforehand. A year or so later i found out how sleazy this girl was. She had slept with her then-boyfriend's roommate, and her boyfriend found out. Her boyfriend was in the army, and according to her, she couldn't stand being without sex.

It was my fault that i flipped over this girl so badly, without getting to know her first. Not that it would have made a difference, since i am pretty repulsive looking. I might have seen her true colors shine a while later, and could have saved myself the embarassment and humiliation I went thru at Jim's house. It was a downright evil thing for her to do, and i'll never forget it. That beautiful white rose i gave Lisa earlier that day, turned a very vivid BLACK!