Confused and dazed, the days go by
One moment a laugh, the other a cry
Impending changes bog down a tired mind
Small ones to talk to, a plan to unwind

The wheels speed on
Need to be gone
Status quo cannot do
Life forever wont be blue

Feeling 90 years old
Too much stress to hold
Venting to the one i love
The one sent to me from the one above

The day draws near
Hands shake with fear
Small ones that I hold dear
May no longer want me to appear

The fearful thoughts do not stop there
They carry on to a life thats new
A life I pray always includes you
Do all lives feel like life in a zoo ?

All of my love, all my heart and my soul
Are all things which I cannot control
The pilot of my emotions has chosen the fast track
Baby steps forward, and no turning back

Why is this grown man
Filled with fear, with trembling hands?
Fear of losing the kids he so loves
Or disappointing his love sent from above
Or worse yet, feeling disgust and mistrust
In himself, feels he must shake off this rust
Clean of the dust, move on, yes he must

Get on with a life that includes me
Is that unfair to want that to be
Love for you no way to conceal
Numb to the world, its you that I feel

A need to be strong, need to be wise
To stand up tall, to look you in the eyes
To tell you that my love is forever
And prayers of us always together

Fear of invading your space
Or of digust, distrust seen on your face
Or of failing to be the man that you see
When you close your eyes and you dream

A simple soul, with a complex plan
A complex life for a simple man
Must be best to never ask why
Confused and dazed, the days go by