Vincent Lee was like that perfect guy for me. One to take my mind off anything, to keep me happy, full of life and positive. When we first started out by meeting over the internet it was a little strange. we talked and finally decided upon meeting. When I saw him i was in complete shock. not only was he good looking, but he was holding a single rose (very sweet) and wearing the most fantastic smile i had ever come across. We talked and found we had some common interests. we both had same hopes dreams and ambitions and both were looking for someone to share life with at the time.
Time went on and we talked all the time on the phone and internet. We had our ups and downs, but it was all very real and up front. I began to fall in love with this man. Sure he was miles away, but that didnt stop us from following our dreams to be together whenever we could. We were both living under the influence of our parents rules.
Vincent anounced something very upsetting a few months into our relationship. "sweetie, he said I have to go away to Michigan for the entire summer, but once I come back, i promiss to be yours forever" i couldnt help but cry I loved him so much. I decided that we could withstand the seperation and still remain together with 2,000 miles apart.
The night before he left he held me close vowing to never leave me. " i love you Danielle , i want to marry you, have babies with you, and as soon as i come back we are moving in together" He kissed me softly as he boarded his bus. I whispered i love you and ran home crying. I knew 3 months was a long time, but i thought i could handle it.
The first month was okay. We didnt talk much on the phone but we did write back and forth to eachother every day as planned. I was so proud of myself being able to hold up a relationship from so far away.
The second month got even better. We missed eachother a lot but he was able to call me every single day. We would talk forever on how we planned to stay together forever. He told me every plan he had right down to the detail of what our furniture would look like. I could only smile and parade around bragging to all my friends what a terrific guy i had gotten to be with. I called him my soul mate. He agreed.
Love hurts tho, and promisses somehow always get broken. when he finally came home from michigan i thought the world would finally turn once agian but sadly our relationship lasted a mere 2 weeks after his return. He was unable to see me due to obligations and we barely talked. HE called me today right after i had just recieved the news that i had gotten accepted to the job i applied for.
" Danielle , He said with a strange sense of calmness , This isnt going to work out. I feel like i need to find myself. Im too young to make these sort of commitments."
I could only sigh as i looked down at the promiss ring he had slipped on my fingers only months before. I couldnt believe it as he spilled out his confession of not wanting to live a lie anymore. He said he had stopped loveing me and for a week now had no feelings for me. "
I couldnt believe it. My heart froze in my chest and tears ran down my face without me even knowing. He had just called me last night and when I had asked him how he felt about "us" he had only replied that " i love you more then anything your the most important thing in my life." I guess love is a hard lesson to learn in life, but like all things in life you have to fail at it a couple of times to reach perfection. I sure do miss him, and even though i know the possibitlity of us being friends is limited, i still see a streak of sunshine in all this gray. I love you vincent lee.